What I'm slowly coming to realize is that I simply can't have dessert. I can eat all the fruit I want - and I especially like strawberries, apples, bananas, and grapes - but I can't eat cookies, cakes, brownies, or similiar foods. Once I get beyond that deep craving, which can take a week or two, I miss that sugar and its accompanying comfort much less, and I'm okay with seeing other people eat such things, but I can't touch it myself. I can't "just have one serving." I can't actually control myself, so it's better if I just stay away altogether.
Which leads my just feeling badly, not only because I ate a dessert, but because I couldn't stop myself or control myself. I need to get past the feeling of deprivation of not having cookies, or the dessert du jour.
This is a shame because I really love to bake, and I'm good at it, too. I wonder if I'll ever get to the point where I can have just a serving and be content. I suppose it's possible, but it's going to be awhile.
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