For several reasons that I don't feel comfortable admitting publicly, I didn't finish grad school. I was close to it - I had only one class to finish (and by "class" I mean "thesis"), but I lost steam and interest and was mentally burned out and forlorn.
I guess I was more comfortable admitting that than I thought. I guess what I'm not comfortable with is the judgement and guilt that comes along with not having finished the graduate degree.
I graduated with my undergraduate degree in 2007, and I am not joking or being otherwise dramatic when I say there was not a teaching job to be found; the economy had tanked the previous year, and the NYC Department of Education implemented a hiring freeze that, so far as I know, is still in effect (five years later). If largest school district in the country wasn't hiring, along with there being thousands of newly minted teaching grads, getting a job teaching English was nearly impossible.
Despite that, I managed to get a job teaching college-level English at three different colleges. I left one teaching job in Pennsylvania because Ed and I became engaged, although even after two semesters I had been offered more classes for that upcoming fall semester. One college did not renew my contract because I did not have a graduate degree; sadly, that I would need to be currently enrolled in a graduate program was information that had not been shared with me during my interview. (After two semesters of not having heard this I was a bit surprised at not being offered classes the following semester, but I had other work lined up.) The third college knows I have quite a few graduate-level courses under my belt - I specifically mentioned this during my interview with the department chair - and he acknowledged that he knew this, although he did mention my need to finish, which, to be honest, was fair and very matter-of-fact, but not dwelled on. I really appreciated that the matter was acknowledged, but dropped.
It's now been five years since I graduated, and jobs teaching English are just as hard to come by - more so, because I live in a comparably sparsely populated state. I had a handful of interviews since I've been here, but of course aside from the college jobs - for which, I might add, I am very grateful - I haven't been offered anything full-time. Until recently, money has been tight enough that things like restarting a graduate degree just wasn't something we could even consider long-term; it was more important to worry about things like paying the mortgage and figuring out if we could afford to eat. Thank goodness that's changed.
Which means I can start looking at graduate programs again. Ed gave me a push about this last night, which is probably a good thing, because I'm worried and frightened about going back to grad school because I'm afraid I'll botch the GREs (again), or not get accepted anywhere, and then I'll just be sunk permanently. Fortunately, my graduate school grades were pretty good; all my grades were in the A/A- range (aside from that one B+: Damn you Virginia Woolf!). Also fortunately, I've had actual real teaching experience. (Not to dismiss subbing, but I'd rather have my own classroom than be a career substitute teacher.)
Quite a few universities with good reputations have online graduate programs these days, so I'm considering applying to:
- Northern Arizona University: M.A. in English - Rhetoric and the Teaching of Writing
- Bowling Green State University: M.A. in English
- Pepperdine University: M.A. in Learning Technologies
- San Diego State University: M.Ed. in Educational Technology
- Texas Tech University: M.Ed. in Instructional Technology
I'm more inclinded to get an M.A. instead of an M.Ed., but a learning, educational, or instructional technology degree appeals to me also. (NAU and Pepperdine are at the top of my list at this point, though.) I'm anxious about taking the GREs again, for which I've registered to take in mid-October. I'll need to get some letters of recommendation, copies of transcripts, and writing samples, and write a few personal statements. I'd like to have all my applications in by January, so I've a lot to take care of.